The wonderful quotation made me re-live amazing memories of close to 2-2.5 years back, yes those 9 months, the most special ones, when for the 1st time I established the fact that there was a life bubbling up in me!
Well, so different was that day, amidst the hush of life, when the purple line in the test suddenly got me in qualm..Dilemma on how my professional life would move ahead? Serious skepticism on how will I raise up a life? Was I competent enough to have a perfect blend of raising up a kid with ample ecstasies along with the smart work of my professional life? With so many If’s & buts on my left logical side, the right side of brain was enjoying the moment..Hilarious, It was sensing something beautiful, something striking a chord with my life. Yes it overtook all the pessimism of left side with a lovely aura of spending the upcoming 9 months with full zeal & zest, blissfully counting on the days to hold a delicate tender darling.
With ample questions every day, wrt developments every week rather every day, how the nutrition needs to be tied up irrespective of anything, what all precautions one need to carry along..Registration to baby centre became my handy guide. Yes, numerous directions flew every day from both the Mom’s, which actually gave me a sense of great feeling..I was suddenly on the “prime list” of every family member.
Wanna eat Ice cream & Jalebi at 11 in the night? Eat, don’t control. Wanna rush to a lush garden & have a leisure time, come let’s go. No dinner mood..Leave it, ample choices to be spoilt for. Why drive, cabs are there to help! Oh God ,those superb 9 months ,full of tantrums & excitement ,those were the moments which made my family re-pamper me to the heights & I actually lived my sweet old days .
The routine was more or less the same, being a working woman, It was great to go to office & try to be the same person for close to 5 months.. Any cravings, any discussions with close friends were not allowed to be over heard to other colleagues ( Out of sheer shyness & strict instructions from in-laws to not leak out the good news) .The biggest difficulty was when I moved in 2nd & 3rd trimester & had to somehow hide the baby bump;) Well, thanks to the little one inside who did not allow me to put on much & was able to work out till the last days. Thanks to him that he allowed me to keep on my pace while working. There were amazing sentiments, while talking to your boss, you get a high kick from inside & you just stammer upon, unable to utter or laugh (& then later on you see yourself giggling ;)). I got so lovely colleagues who asked me to slow down & not to lose the appetite completely.. It was a great time to hear from people that your kid will be a super active kid (I certainly had no doubts on it looking at the life I led;)) , & the most precious comment from a close colleague when I told him that “I won’t come from tomorrow.. Hey why are you quitting the organization?” Ha Ha I was stunned but upon telling him with the fact, stunned him all the more.. 8.5 months sitting beside me & unaware of this reality..It felt as WOW..People didn’t even realize that I was expecting!! Incredible journey by me 😉
Initially there were days of upset-ness in first 3 months which I usually felt during evenings post returning from work. But being blessed with an amazing partner, those moments were always lightened..Sometimes “Doughnut guy” was ringing the bell & other times, my loved starters would!! We would sit & play “Scrabble to Ludo to Carom & to utterly kiddish “Guess who ;)”..We would be madly dancing & roaming around in the lanes for night walk. There were daily “Rasgulla’s” in the fridge & Coconut water, soya chips & what all not; all these were a daily part of my bag. God, it was extreme coddling. My better half was all the time on his toes to get me all what I even thought off J Every months there were surprises hidden (Don’t know if they were for me or the little upcoming champ) .
There were days when the visits to hospital made my heart beat go up, sonography’s longed me to see the face of little one (But I wasn’t lucky ,he was so shy to face the camera;)) , switching & increasing of the medicines putrefied my face ..Any comment by the gynecologist suddenly made me all the more cautious…There were wonderful counseling session in the last trimester to make a new mom understand the new life..
There were numerous changes going on in my body every day every minute ,sometimes eating became difficult ,sometimes travel & other times even breathing.. But it all perished when “we” used to chat & smile; When he used to kick & revolve all around inside (as if surveying the upcoming world) ,when the hearts used to beat in sync with one another ..It was the most beautiful feeling to which only I had the access & that was the feeling of “Being a Mom”. Those were the moments when the emotional bond had already been developed, we already knew each other & the only word which existed between us was of “Love, Love & Love”. We were far away from the reality of this world & were lost amongst each other.
& then there was the day ,when he was there in my arms ,so close to me ,I could feel his every breath ,I longed for him close to 9 months & yes the best gift of God was there holding me !